Elissa Wall Speaks Out About Her 'Stolen Innocence'

Elissa Wall writes about her experience as a child bride in her book "Stolen Innocence."

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'I Was His Property'

The next morning Wall was taken from Colorado City, Ariz., to the then-church-owned Hotsprings Motel in Caliente, Nev., where the church secretly allegedly held its illegal weddings of underage girls.

Video obtained by "20/20" shows other female hotel guests going wild, wearing nothing but undergarments and drinking beer in a hot tub at the same motel — all taboos under Jeffs.

"It kind of reminds me of the Bates Motel from the movie 'Psycho,'" investigator Brower said. "It's kind of creepy. It's such an out-of-the-way place and I think that's what made the FLDS so comfortable with this place."

In Room 15, Wall said, she at first refused to recite her vows, but finally relented when sternly ordered by Jeffs.

"After a lot of silence, I just said, 'OK, I do.' And to me I was broken," she said. "I was ashamed, hurt and broken. I was sobbing at this point and [Jeffs] just looked right at me and told me, 'You kiss Allen.'"

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That kiss would be the beginning of the nightmare to come. In school, Wall had received no sex education. Dancing, dating and holding hands were prohibited by the Jeffs.

"He was the one that would teach in school that boys are poisonous snakes and that we were to keep away from them," Wall said. "I had no idea what husbands and wives did. When I was married I truly did not know that people did more than sleep in bed."

"He started to touch me and it was extremely uncomfortable for me. Every night would get a little bit more and [then] he started on my private areas. For a young girl, I was very innocent. I just felt horrible and violated."

For weeks, Wall tried to resist her cousin's advances but she also didn't want to go against her prophet Jeffs. Church doctrine dictates that followers obey priesthood commands.

"He had complete control over me mentally and therefore because I was his property and I was his, he was able to do what he did to me," she said as she described the alleged rape she received at the hands of her cousin. "At the time I did not know that. It was many years later that I realized the weight of what had happened and the true meaning of rape."