Okay. They would probably ask me what you are asking me right now. I don't think they would ask me different questions.
I have already announced in the media whatever I know about it.
Did anyone from the government or somewhere else call you?
No, no one called me. If they did call me, I don't know. For example yesterday, many people called me from the press, but I couldn't answer some of them. They may be among them, those I couldn't speak with. I don't know exactly.
What was your first reaction when you heard that your husband was involved in this kind of attack?
It was around 7 o'clock. The morning after the event, I received a phone call from Pakistan, from his friend. Frankly, I couldn't feel feelings like panic, because my daughter also woke up. It was a phone number from which my husband always was calling. When I heard another voice instead of his, I was surprised when I figured out that it was not my husband. And after that I tried not to show this to my daughter. I was shocked, along with the pressure to keep this from my daughter.
What did he tell you?
He told me that my husband conducted an attack in Afghanistan and he killed 8 CIA agents including a Jordan intelligence worker. He advised me to be patient.
He told me that he would send me [my husband's] letter and his last will.
Do you know what his last will entails?
I couldn't ask, because I was in a panic.
When did you speak with your husband for the last time?
I spoke with my husband for the last time one or one-and-a-half months ago by phone. On the internet, we spoke with him about 10 days ago.
Did he say anything about it?
No, to the contrary, he was always saying that he would come to Turkey. We were thinking that he would study here. Thinking of this idea, we came here and settled. He didn't tell me anything. He was always saying that he will come to Turkey, study and would like to have Turkish citizenship. I mean he was saying those kinds of things.
What are you going to do now?
We are going to continue our life. There is nothing to do.
Are you going to go to Jordan or planning to live here from now on?
I don't think I could go to Jordan.
How did you learn about the [suicide bombing]?
I learned about the event from a phone call coming from Pakistan. A friend of his called me and informed me.
Did you live in Jordan before?
I was already living in Jordan. We just came from Jordan. We were living in Jordan for 8 years. We came here 2 months ago.
Have you ever thought that he might be a CIA agent?
I surely don't think so because my husband was an anti-U.S. person, who cannot be an agent. I can't even think of that kind of thing. My husband probably used the U.S. and Jordan...
Will you miss your husband?
Who wouldn't? Surely.
You are probably sad about losing your husband? But he conducted an attack …
Frankly, I am proud of my husband. I think my husband conducted a very big operation in a kind of war. Hopefully, if he is a martyr, may God accept his being a martyr. I think there is not much to say about the subject.
I didn't expect this kind of thing, because my husband went there to study. After that he started working there. This is the point.
What was he thinking?