Suicide doesn't stand alone. It doesn't just happen as the result of nothing out of nowhere it's the result of something. I was a mass before -- was diagnosed. I was sick and dying in my thoughts --... See More
Suicide doesn't stand alone. It doesn't just happen as the result of nothing out of nowhere it's the result of something. I was a mass before -- was diagnosed. I was sick and dying in my thoughts -- so scattered and and -- Connie -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- didn't know where was -- did not know what was going to happen to -- I was popular student. -- one that was always smiling always laughing. If you saw me in Hollywood thing that's the last person in the world to have depression. I -- -- and very. Self destructive mode I was drinking more alcohol mind taking painkillers. -- who -- up. When I had these suicidal thoughts. -- -- to be. I didn't know how to talk to anyone because I figured I was the only one who had those thoughts and emotions. And if I -- -- one I'm haven't thought about when and to be here. I just figured that the automatic reaction of the I have to go to a psych ward had to go to mental hospital. I knew that nine stories it was a miracle that I was alive. There's a lot of things that happened. Her life you can choose. Where there's losses there's abuse there's tons. The one thing -- can never be taken away from New York is your ability to choose how to respond. Firmly believe that life turned around. -- take ownership of her. Problems I didn't know that there were other people -- do the same type of issues the saints have problems that there would ever be anyone else that would have suicidal thoughts. Instead of somebody saying. You need to get help when I knew I needed help from when I actually. -- really believe -- demolished her return. I wish I did speak out about mind and emotions of the moment feelings. I -- -- someone else saying Y struggles.
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