He eventually picked up Steenkamp, but later put her down, holding his hand on her hip to try and stop the bleeding.
“I just sat there with her and waited for the ambulance to arrive,” he said. “I felt helpless, I wanted to take her to the hospital.”
By the time paramedics arrived, Steenkamp was dead, Pistorius said.
“I stood a couple of meters away from them. The paramedic lady came to me and said she’d like to inform me Reeva had passed,” he said, taking long pauses between his sentences, his shoulders hunched.
Pistorius said that after the police arrived, they asked him to stay in the kitchen so he sat on the floor there, crying. He asked the police for permission to wash his hands because the smell of his girlfriend's blood was making him vomit. Later he asked the police to take whatever photos they needed so he could also take off his blood-soaked clothes.