For most of her adult life, Kelly Summers survived tragedy by hiding it.
Accustomed to performance, the 53-year-old singer from Nottinghamshire, England, said she would put on her make-up, give the world her strongest face and take cover under her stage persona, "Sunny Daye."
But when her boyfriend broke up with her this summer, uncorking a stream of untended emotion, she decided it was time to do the opposite.
Six weeks later, the string of video clips hasn't just attracted more than 30,000 views or given Summers a new outlook on life, it's done what she never expected: It's helped her reunite with the love of her life.
"I'd always hidden me. I got to the point where I was just screaming. I was just so sick of not being heard, not being myself," she said. "Everything toppled down on top of me. I just realized that I wasn't going to survive unless I did something drastic and radical."
When her romance blossomed with Keith Tallis, a 55-year-old British singer, in February, Summers said it brought her happiness she hadn't experienced in decades.
In 2000, she had an accident that injured her right arm so severely she said she could no longer write properly. In 2005, her 23-year-old son Blake died unexpectedly after a seizure. Summers said he was the fourth of her five children to die.
"[Tallis] set me free from grieving every day for my children and for my past life that was ruined with my accident," she said. "He came along and gave me something that made my heart whole again. And nobody had been able to do that. ... It's something in him that put that back into me."
The pair happily dated long distance for a couple of months but, when Summers paid Tallis a surprise visit in April, she learned the devastating truth: He was living with a long-term partner and her young child.
Summers confronted Tallis and ended the relationship but, in July, he traveled to see her and said he was a single man.
The two reconciled and Summers thought they were on solid ground again. But 10 days later, Tallis took off and returned to his partner.
"It was so unexpected. He lifted me up so high. I hadn't been so happy for such a long time," she said. "I just crashed so hard, so suddenly, I couldn't cope and everything came back."
Awash in grief that had accumulated over the years and unable to write in a paper diary, she decided to record her sorrow -- and her steps forward -- in a video blog online.
She turned to YouTube and launched the "Froglet Diaries," named for the affectionate moniker Tallis had given her.
"I just wanted to show, OK, I might be in this place now, but just watch where I'm going," she said. "I wanted to make a log of the journey, really, and I didn't want to be a false person. I wanted to be real and show it as it was."
The first few videos show a deeply distraught Summers, with her hair in disarray and her face streaked with make-up-tinted tears. But the later videos reveal a renewed woman, more at peace with herself and the circumstances that have shaped her life.
"I feel as though this whole thing has made me stronger as a person, emotionally," she said. "You have to stop hiding and stop protecting yourself from the pain of living."