It hasn't even been two months since Gia Allemand, 29, hanged herself in early August and the pain still lingers for boyfriend Ryan Anderson, who spoke yesterday to the media for the first time since her death.
The New Orleans Pelicans basketball player was the one who found the "Bachelor" contestant unresponsive at her home on Aug. 12 after receiving an alarming text from Allemand's mother.
Since that incident, Anderson, 25, said "every day is a challenge" but that he is happy to be back at practice with friends and family who support and love him.
"It helps to be here," Anderson told The Times-Picayune yesterday in New Orleans. "To be here with my teammates really helps a lot, but it's a rollercoaster."
Anderson told the paper that his faith has kept him strong and helped him through the tragedy. He was still noticeably shaken only weeks after his girlfriend was pulled off life support.
"Something like that just doesn't happen for no reason," he said as he began to cry. "And I know that … there's … a huge plan here."
Anderson said there's a plan to help others suffering from depression like Allemand through a foundation in her memory.
"A lot of people are going to be helped from this. And … we're in the process of starting something great for her with her family, including my family, too," he added.
The grieving process is being helped along by the support of teammates, who according to the Times-Picayune stood by him during his interview yesterday, even putting a hand on his shoulder as he spoke.
Coach Monty Williams told the paper he believes Anderson is doing better.
"For him to come back as fast as he did [to practice] and get back to working with the guys and just being around it's an extraordinary step for him," Williams said.