-- It's been a few weeks since Ronda Rousey's shocking loss to Holly Holm, but the famed fighter still feels the effects of the abuse she took.
"I'm just really f----- sad," she added in her first interview following her loss on Nov. 14. "I need to come back. I need to beat this chick. Who knows if I'm going to pop my teeth out or break my jaw or rip my lip open. I have to f----- do it."
In fact, Rousey, 28, said from the beginning of the fight, she knew she was done.
"I got hit in that first round...I cut my lip open and knocked a couple of my teeth loose," she said. "It was like a dumbed-down dreamy version of yourself making decisions. I was just trying to shake myself out of it. I kept saying to myself, 'You're OK, keep fighting. You're OK, keep fighting.' I just feel so embarrassed. How I fought after that is such an embarrassing representation of myself."
After the fight, Rousey and her boyfriend drove to a remote ranch in Texas to get away.
"I kind of just slept a lot and ate fast food," she said. "First I was so sick I couldn't eat anything. Physically, my body was refusing its own failures. It was, like, sick of itself."
As for her next fight, Rousay said, "I guess it's all going to be determined by what happens in the rematch. Everything is going to be determined by that. Either I'll win and keep going or I won't and I'll be done with everything."