"I was different character playing," he said. "Now I've had to slow down and do different things. I think we all do. I think when you've been gone awhile you have time to reflect on things. But I needed 'that guy' to play. I needed him. It was who I was at the time. It was not who I am in my day-to-day life.
"I'm the same person but a different character. I was like this guy over here who is crazy and this guy over here who is not. I'm more in the middle. I can still be crazy, but I'm a lot calmer now."
Bonds said that however players look at him, even if they are intimidated, they will be able to connect when they work one-on-one.
Asked whether he might learn as much about coaching from them as they will learn about playing from him, Bonds replied, "I have to learn [about] them. But that will never take me more than a minute. All you have to do is go into a batting cage and I'll tell you everything that's going on. Very fast."
How much can one of the greatest, albeit controversial, players in baseball history help the Giants?
"I think they did pretty good without me," Bonds said. "They won two World Series championships. I don't know if I can help. I know I can do one thing: I can help you do a little better than you already are. But I don't know how much I can do. But I will have time to find out."
Bonds said he had no bittersweet or jealous feelings when the Giants won the World Series championship that always eluded him.
"I'm not jealous. I'm happy," he said. "This is my town. It's my city. It's my family. I'm happy. I was almost in tears when they won, I was that happy. It was something we had wanted for a long time. ... I've always been a Giant."
And now he is wearing the uniform again, though he is unsure if he will don it again after this week.
"I just want to get through seven days and see if I can do that," Bonds said. "I've got to get through these seven days first. I don't know if I'm even good enough."