Angelina Jolie: Billy Bob, Knives and Sex

She admits she's been a bit wild, but says her wildness was more about being silly and free than destructive. Her destructiveness, she says, was only self-destructive.

She says she had a fascination with death and even studied the science of preparing bodies for death. She said she took a home course when she was just 15 years old.

"I thought I'd become a funeral director when I wasn't going to be an actor. … I thought I would be good at helping some people with the grieving process and with trying to get them to talk about and understand who this person was," she said.

Jolie also developed a fascination for knives. She says she still collects them.

"I've always been fascinated by other cultures and history and honor and fight and so they … they are not shiny, brand-new sharp knives from the store. They're antique beautiful knives from other countries, and they are locked in a case so my son does not touch them," she said.

But as a teenager, her fascination with knives was self-destructive in nature. She talks openly about how she once cut herself to express pain. For Jolie, knives and cutting also had a sexual lure.

"I didn't ever feel enough. I didn't feel close enough to another person, I didn't feel alive enough. … Nothing ever felt real and honest enough. And so because I had knives around … early on in my first sexual relationship, I got knives out and had a night where we attacked each other," Jolie said.

Jolie says she still has scars from the encounter, but said, "It didn't hurt, it was cold, and it felt so primitive and it felt so honest."

She says she no longer cuts herself because she's a mother. "I have a child now. I think when you make a decision to have a child, you cannot think about suicide again and you can't be self-destructive."

Single for Good?

These days Jolie spends much of her time on the road shooting movies. She's currently in Montreal finishing a feature due out next year. And Maddox accompanies her wherever she goes.

Last summer in China, Maddox was a constant presence on the set of the second Tomb Raider picture. Her role as mother, Jolie says, comes first.

As much as she loves parenthood, Jolie says she doesn't see herself taking the plunge and getting married again.

"I understand great friendships, and great loves in your life, but what a marriage is, I don't really know if I'm meant for marriage," she said. "And I think now having a child would mean that this person would become a father to my son, and that would have to be permanent, and I haven't had a good experience with that, and with my father, or with the men in my life, seeing long relationships. So, I don't want to have a temporary father for my son."

Jolie says she's not dating and misses certain aspects of being in a relationship, but hasn't found anyone — male or female. She's made no secret of having had an affair with another woman.

"I consider myself a very sexual person who loves who she loves, whatever sex they may be," she said.

Her one relationship with a woman happened in 1996. "I wasn't looking to have a relationship with a woman. I was surprised when I suddenly found myself having these feelings I always had for men, but for a woman, and wanting to kiss her and wanting to touch her."

A Hello and Goodbye With Her Father

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