Ashley Dupré: 'I've Made So Many Mistakes'

Ashley Dupré, the former escort involved in the scandal surrounding New York Gov. Eliot Spitzer, says that she's made many mistakes, and that many other young women could have ended up in a similar situation.

"You don't mean to make those choices, but you're put in a situation and, you know, you have an opportunity to do it," she told ABC News' Diane Sawyer in an interview airing tonight on "20/20."

Dupré's father left when she was small, and her mother remarried an oral surgeon. When she was 12, her 17-year-old brother ran away and got arrested for dealing drugs.

Dupré said she felt lost at that point, and that, as a teenager, she was confused about her relationship with men.

"I think by not having my father and my brother around, I really ... I felt like I missed something," she said. "To have a certain level of respect for yourself, how to carry yourself. Have that father that, you know, if I'm dating a guy and he can't stand him, you know, stick up for me and say, 'What are you doing?' The unconditional love feeling ... I just couldn't find it.

"I didn't have that emotional connection," she continued. "I think I was confused. I didn't know what sex was."

But Dupré doesn't blame her father or brother for the mistakes she acknowledges making.

"I've made so many mistakes," she said. "It's trial and error. I feel like I've raised myself. I left home at 17, you know."

Dupré left her home in New Jersey and went to live with her biological father, but she said she couldn't adjust to the new school, and dropped out junior year.

"I called my dad, I said, 'I can't do this. I'm dropping out,'" she said. "And he said, 'Well, don't come home.'"

Dupré wanted to prove she could make it on her own.

Dupré said she started by sleeping on the couches of friends and also wandered into a drunken topless shoot that surfaced on "Girls Gone Wild." She worked as a cocktail waitress at a strip club, and said she "got involved with the wrong crowd" and with drugs, using "cocaine, ecstasy, pot and vodka [and] alcohol" on a regular basis.

Dupré on Escort Work

At 19, Dupré moved to New York, hoping for a new life.

"I was working three jobs," she said. "I never had my house. ... I wanted my home to be my home, because I never had a home."

While Dupré worked as a cocktail waitress, a customer gave her a business card for an escort service. She saved the card but said the prospect of working as an escort "wasn't about the money. It was really a place that I could emotionally disconnect myself, rather than be in a relationship and get hurt and be vulnerable."

A few weeks later, she said she called the company and started working that night.

"I knew the line of business," she said. "I already had it in my mind what it was, and I made that decision. ... I knew exactly what I was walking into. ... I was so naive then. I think I was 19, and I was so careless."

Dupré said she never did the work steadily, and that no one knew what she was doing. She'd make cash for three months at a time, then take six months off, going to work at a real estate agency or waitressing, only to go back to escort again.

Dupré uses the word escort to describe the business, which, for her, carries a different meaning than "prostitute."

"I think that prostitution is only about sex," she said. "Whereas an escort is more -- It's time spent ... And, you know, most of the time you go in and you're just someone to talk to."

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