Wentworth Miller Details Past Depression and Suicidal Thoughts

PHOTO:In this file photo, Wentworth Miller attends the screening of "The Loft" at the Directors Guild of America, Jan. 27, 2015, in Los Angeles. Tibrina Hobson/Getty Images
In this file photo, Wentworth Miller attends the screening of "The Loft" at the Directors Guild of America, Jan. 27, 2015, in Los Angeles.

"Legends of Tomorrow" star Wentworth Miller took to Facebook to open up about past depression and "suicidal" thoughts.

The acclaimed actor, 43, revealed his past issues after a hurtful meme hit the Internet, showing Miller having packed on a few pounds some years back.

"In 2010, semi-retired from acting, I was keeping a low-profile for a number of reasons. First and foremost, I was suicidal," the actor wrote. "This is a subject I've since written about, spoken about, shared about. But at the time I suffered in silence. As so many do. The extent of my struggle known to very, very few."

Miller explained further that depression has ailed him since childhood and 2010 was a low point.

"I was looking everywhere for relief/comfort/distraction. And I turned to food. It could have been anything. Drugs. Alcohol. Sex. But eating became the one thing I could look forward to," he candidly continued. "And I put on weight. Big f****** deal."

He continued, "One day, out for a hike in Los Angeles with a friend, we crossed paths with a film crew shooting a reality show. Unbeknownst to me, paparazzi were circling. They took my picture, and the photos were published alongside images of me from another time in my career. 'Hunk To Chunk.' 'Fit To Flab.' Etc," he added.

But the actor added that the pictures now bring him a feeling of perseverance and that he was able to make it through an incredibly painful time.

"Like a dandelion up through the pavement, I persist," he continued. "The first time I saw this meme pop up in my social media feed, I have to admit, it hurt to breathe. But as with everything in life, I get to assign meaning. And the meaning I assign to this/my image is Strength. Healing. Forgiveness."

This isn't the first time Miller has opened up about his past. In 2013, he admitted that at 15 years old, he tried to kill himself.

The openly gay actor also used his past pain as a catalyst to explain to a Russian film festival on why he would decline their invitation three years ago.

"I am deeply troubled by the current attitude toward and treatment of gay men and women by the Russian government," he wrote in a letter to the St. Petersburg International Film Festival committee. "The situation is in no way acceptable, and I cannot in good conscience participate in a celebratory occasion hosted by a country where people like myself are being systematically denied their basic right to live and love openly."