PORTLAND, Ore. -- Dwight Howard came to Houston last summer to win, not to wait. After two nightmarish seasons in Orlando and Los Angeles that left his reputation in tatters and cast him further away from a title than ever, he'd come to understand that the only salvation, the only deodorant for all that had gone wrong for him since that Finals appearance in 2009, was to win.
He couldn't talk his way out of it. He couldn't charm his way out of it. It didn't even matter if he got full credit for resurrecting these Rockets or if James Harden did. If they won, all of it -- the negativity, the clashes with coaches in Orlando and L.A., the head-butts with Kobe Bryant, all of it would be expunged from his record.
He did not come for another first-round playoff exit. But after Sunday night's 123-120 overtime loss to the Portland Trail Blazers, he and the Rockets find themselves down 3-1 and facing elimination heading into Game 5 in Houston.
For a team that came into the season with visions of contending for a championship, it would be a staggeringly early exit. One that would be hard for all involved to digest. Howard wasn't allowing himself to go there yet. Not with another game still to play. Not when three of these four games have been decided in overtime and the Blazers are winning by a combined seven points over the four games.
This has been an achingly close series thus far. One that has been decided mostly by Portland's poise and cohesiveness in big moments, compared to the Rockets' sloppy mistakes and lack of consistent aggression. On some level Howard understands that Houston is the youngest of all the teams in the playoffs. That it's going to take time for this team to grow up. That maybe the Rockets simply aren't ready this year.
It doesn't mean he has to accept it, however. And as this series has gone on, he's had fight back the frustration that's boiling inside him as he watches the late-game turnovers, lack of commitment to defense and inconsistency in the Rockets' style of play on offense.
"We don't have time. Time is not on our side," Howard said after the loss. "We have to really value each possession. I've been saying that since day one."
"When we have a plan, you've got to stick with it," Rockets coach Kevin McHale said of Lin's turnover with 29 seconds remaining in regulation and Houston clinging to a two-point lead. "When we got the rebound, we said unless we had a clear break, we were going to take a timeout. Jeremy gets the defensive rebound and dribbles it out, and we lose the ball. I mean, I don't know, we couldn't be any clearer than a clear break or timeout.
"It's not his fault. He made basketball plays. It's just saying, that was typical of what we did tonight. And we had some defensive times where we just stood there and watched guys shoot the ball. We can't do that. We gotta get up on em."
McHale was clearly exasperated with his young team after the loss. They're so talented, it's a shame how costly these mistakes have been. But like Howard, he knows this team is young and still growing.