Ted Haggard Opens Up About His Past in New Documentary

"She told me she likes Ted Haggard a lot," Jones said. "I don't know how much she used of me, but if she puts nothing in she does me a disservice."

"She filmed me at book signings and presentations and got the crowd reactions," he told ABCNews.com. "One of the biggest things that came out in front of the groups is, 'What right did you have to make this public? You should have kept your mouth shut.'"

He told ABCNews.com he was motivated to go public when an amendment to ban gay marriage was on the November 2006 ballot in Colorado.

Jones said he has found little personal redemption in the aftermath of the scandal. The 51-year-old, who said he no longer works as a prostitute, said that the interest in his book was "terrible" and that it never made money. He has since had difficulty finding work.

"My life has been like a cancer eating away at me," he said. "I have been at the epicenter of the scandal."

Today, he does personal training and house-sitting and is contemplating a move from his home state of Colorado for a "fresh start." He said even the gay community offered little support.

"I know when he starts speaking on Friday, he's going to come after me," said Jones. "The documentary will pull at the heart strings, 'Hey, feel sorry for me.' The ironic thing is that Ted Haggard and I are going through the same thing."

Though Jones is not religious, he finds solace in some who viewed his actions as courageous.

"I had a married couple come up and say, 'Because of your bravery our son was able to talk to us about homosexuality,'" he said. "A lot of people's lives were changed. The hypocrisy was exposed. But I am not sure I would do the same thing today."

Ted Haggard Looks for Forgiveness

But Boyd stressed that even though Scripture still takes a strong stance against homosexuality, Haggard can still be restored as a Christian.

"If he is living an open and honest life and having counseling and there is a season of repentance to those in the church who were hurt -- absolutely it is possible," he said. "But it's hard to say what that restoration would look like, and things will never be the same. But if it were not in the Gospel, it wouldn't be true."

Though Haggard struggles mightily throughout the film, he works to keep his marriage intact.

"Even though I'm a sinner, even though I'm weak, God's best plan for human beings is for men and women to unite together," he says in the film. "And children's best opportunity to grow up in a healthy way is to grow up in the home with their biological parents."

In the year since the film was made, Boyd said the Haggards' marriage appears to be surviving the scandal.

"From what I know, they are much further along," he said. "They're together and their kids live with them and they are not combative. They care for one another and are hopeful."

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