Caitlyn Jenner Named to Glamour Women of the Year List

"Go in there; no more pain," she tells Glamour as a Woman of the Year.

ByABC News
October 29, 2015, 10:12 AM

— -- Caitlyn Jenner has been named one of Glamour magazine's Women of the Year, and though she is now a symbol of hope in the transgender community, she looked back to her absolute lowest point.

Right before she finally decided to transition, Jenner, 66, says that after leaving the doctor's office last year post-surgery to reduce the size of her Adam's apple, photographers were waiting and pictures started to pop up online. One night, she thought about ending it all.

"Go in there; no more pain," she told Glamour of when she thought about using the gun she keeps in her Malibu, California, home. But, then, she decided to go the other way.

"I thought, 'OK, you transition, big deal! You are still alive. You have to make your life interesting,'" she said. "I started thinking, ‘Maybe this is why God put me on Earth. This issue has been swept under the rug for so long. I need to tell this story on the highest level you can possibly do it. Not just for me but for this entire community.’"

Fast-forward past the Vanity Fair cover earlier this year, which Jenner says is "more important than the Olympics by far," and her docu-series, "I Am Cait."

Jenner now seems happier than ever and respected by more who know her story. But there is still a ways to go, she says.

"I'm the exception to the rule, not the rule, OK? I get that," she says of her place in the spotlight and the resources at her disposal.

She continued, "I am just excited about the future for the first time in a long, long time ... if the worst thing in the world that happens to you is you are trans, you've got it made."

Glamour's other honorees include Victoria Beckham and Reese Witherspoon.