"I wrote 'here it is week 9, this is when I lost your brothers and sisters, and I hope you're holding on OK,'" said Beyer. "I never got anything for the baby until the baby kicked."
Even after she gave birth to her son Hudson, now 5, Beyer said she feels unsure of her time with him.
"I just appreciate him every day. If he wants a hug and I stop what I'm doing and I give him a hug, I don't know how many more days he will be asking for a hug," she said.