Feb. 28, 2011— -- Charlie Sheen says he's clean of drugs and alcohol, but high on himself.
"I am on a drug. It's called Charlie Sheen. It's not available because if you try it once, you will die. Your face will melt off and your children will weep over your exploded body," the embattled "Two and a Half Men" star said in an interview with ABC News.
"I woke up and decided, you know, I've been kicked around. I've been criticized. I've been like the, 'Ah, shucks' guy with like this bitchin' rockstar life. And I'm just finally going to completely embrace it, wrap both arms around it, and love it violently. And defend it violently through violent hatred."
Sheen, 45, sat down for an interview with ABC News at his home where he was surrounded by his two girlfriends and the two sons he shares with ex-wife Brooke Mueller. The controversial actor said he wanted to respond to all his recent headline-making actions, including his public feud with his hit show's creator, Chuck Lorre, and show that he's now living a clean life.
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Sheen, known as a bad boy in Hollywood, opened up about his past drug use, saying the last time he used drugs he "probably took more than anybody could survive [on]."
"I was banging seven-gram rocks and finishing them, because that's how I roll," he said. "I have one speed. I have one gear. Go."
Sheen described himself as superhuman, citing a "different constitution," "different brain" and "different heart" than normal people that allowed him to survive such extreme bouts of drug use.
"I got tiger blood, man," he said. "My brain….fires in a way that is -- I don't know, maybe not from this particular terrestrial realm."
When asked if he worries about dying from drug binges, Sheen quipped, "dying's for fools." He went on to explain his set of "rules" when he took drugs, which included avoiding certain blends that brought others down.
"There's certain blends I will not entertain because this [is] how people go down. I'm too smart to do that," he said. "I'm sorry for the guys that that happened to, but, you know, you should have read the directions before you showed up at the party."
At the end of January, Sheen voluntarily checked into a rehab facility following a brief hospitalization and partying spree. His decision to go to rehab prompted CBS Entertainment and Warner Bros. Television to put "Two and a Half Men" on an indefinite hiatus. Sheen later decided to undergo rehab at home.
Sheen said he no longer craved the feeling of being on drugs, saying it "bored the hell out of [him] after a while." Despite his track record, which includes three stints in rehab, Sheen said he was not worried about relapsing.
"I'm not going to, period, the end," he said. "I blinked and I cured my brain, that's how. Everybody has the power. …Can't is the cancer of happen. I can't do it. The Nike slogan doesn't say, 'Just Try It.' Oh, OK. Just try it. No, 'Just Do It,' man."
Sheen Says He's Clean, Passed Drug Test
The sitcom star says he is now clean and sober. Sheen could not pinpoint the last time he took drugs, saying it was about six weeks or a month ago, but that it was shortly before CBS suspended production of his hit show for the rest of the season.
During the ABC News interview, Sheen offered to take a drug test to prove it.
"Give me [a] 'cop in a cup.' I call it 'cop in a cup,'" he said. "I'd love to prove this."
While ABC News was at his Los Angeles home, Sheen consented to a series of drug tests for Radaronline.com's Senior Executive Editor Dylan Howard. The results of an at-home drug urine test came back negative, according to Radaronline.com. In the second batch of tests, including a blood and urine test conducted and administered by a court-certified lab, Sheen tested negative for all drugs. The test covered marijuana, cocaine, opiates, amphetamines, alcohol. The urine test results show that Sheen has been clean for some 72 hours, Howard said on "GMA."
Though Sheen was willing to comply for ABC News and RadarOnline.com, he said he would not agree to weekly drug tests to return to work if CBS asked him.
"I'll do one and then because they said it was my condition and my conduct," he said. "It's that absurd. I'll give them one and then they can just sit back and watch the magic. That's all they deserve."
Television's once-highest paid actor has had a whirlwind few months, culminating in the cancellation of his CBS sitcom.
"I was actually disappointed because I thought the mistakes I made is that people misinterpret my passion for anger," Sheen said.
The move came after the actor launched into a scathing rant against "Two and a Half Men" creator Chuck Lorre on the radio program "Alex Jones Show." CBS announced Thursday night that it had canceled the rest of the show's season as a result of Sheen's "statements, conduct and condition."
In that interview, Sheen said of Lorre that he must have embarrassed him "in front of his children and the world by healing at a pace that his un-evolved mind cannot process."
Sheen went on to call Lorre a "turd" and a "clown," and he sparked accusations of anti-Semitism after pointedly referring to Lorre's birth name, Chaim Levine in the radio interview.
In the ABC News interview, Sheen said the comment was never intended to be anti-Semitic. He said he made it in jest after seeing the name in a brief message posted by Lorre himself at the end of "Two and a Half Men."
"I'm really-- upset-- about how something was interpreted. I feel terrible about it. So, I think we should just clear the air on that. You know, they were like suddenly labeling me an anti-Semite. It's like people didn't know me. There's nothing about that in my history, anywhere."
The actor said if Lorre were sitting in front of him, he would apologize and say: "I'm sorry if I offended you. I didn't know you were so sensitive. I just thought, you know, after you wailing on me for eight years that I could like take a few shots back. I didn't know you were gonna take your little ball and go home and punish everybody in the process."
CBS and Lorre had no comment.
Sheen Plans to Sue for 'Tons'
Sheen has no plans to go down without a fight, saying he will sue for "tons."
"I'm gonna sue for what I'm worth and what I deserve and what they think they can take from me. They can't," Sheen said. "I don't have a job. I got a whole family to support and love. And -- people beyond myself, people a lot more important than me, are relying on that money to -- fuel the magic."
Sheen will reportedly sue CBS and Warner Bros. for more than $300 million for "mental anguish," according to the New York Post.
"I'm here to collect. They're gonna lose. They're gonna lose in a courtroom. So, I would recommend that they do an out of court settlement and fix this whole thing, and pay the crew, and get season nine back on board," he said.
At least in his mind, Sheen has come a long way from the man who made headlines with an all-night party at his house that landed him in hospital in January.
Adult film star Kacey Jordan told ABC News that she saw Sheen "splattered with wine stains, had 'tennis ball size' chunks of cocaine delivered, and was consuming so much booze and coke that she feared he was on a 'suicide binge.'"
Sheen said he has no shame or feelings of self-disgust looking back at the night. Instead, he said he felt a sense of pride.
"I'm proud of what I've created. It was radical," he said. "I exposed people to magic. I exposed them to something they're never otherwise going to see in their boring, normal lives. And I gave that to them. I may forget about them tomorrow, but they'll live with that memory for the rest of their lives. And that's a gift, man."
Sheen described his partying spree as "epic."
"The run I was on made Sinatra, Flynn, Jagger, Richards, all of them just look like you know, droopy eyes armless children," he boasted.
The January incident was not the first time Sheen was sent to the hospital.
In October, police say Sheen trashed a suite at New York's Plaza Hotel in an alcohol-fueled rampage that made headlines and landed him in the hospital.
Sheen declined to comment on the specifics of what really happened in that hotel room in New York City or other allegations of violence leveled against him by many women.
The Oct. 26 incident, where a 22-year-old adult film star locked herself in the bathroom, fearing for her safety, has become infamous.
In the wake of the fallout, Sheen has retreated to his Los Angeles home with his two girlfriends and the two sons he shares with ex-wife Brooke Mueller. He said his primary role is being a father – one that does not compare to being on drugs.
"They're whole different realities, you know. There's great things about both. But what I'm harnessing now is absolute, you know, focus. It's exciting," he said. "I've come back from a place that, you know, people can put labels on it and they can … try to, like, normalize it … and that's fine, but… I've just answered to a higher calling. And it happened in the blink of an eye. And I'm totally excited by it."
He said celebrities like Sean Penn, Mel Gibson and Colin Farrell, have reached out to him, offering the star words of support and wisdom.
"They didn't give me any advice. …It was just love," he said of his conversations with these celebs, calling them all "radical people." "Occasionally, you know, a giant marquee name comes through on your caller I.D. And it's like, 'winning.'"
Sheen said he hopes his "billions" of fans will rally behind him.
"Rally behind me with radical violence and focus and say that, 'No, we will not stand for this. We will not stand for our man being made the scapegoat when he's made everybody around him rich. And now they're punishing them and turning his crew family against him.' You know, it's really not cool, man.'"
CLICK HERE to watch the full "20/20" special -- "Charlie Sheen: In His Own Words."