“There are so many people who have suffered such loss and pain," Grande, 24, told Time magazine, sobbing. "The processing part is going to take forever.”
The "No Tears Left to Cry" singer told the magazine she doesn't really want to discuss the attack because she doesn't want to "give it that much power...something so negative. It’s the absolute worst of humanity."
"That’s why I did my best to react the way I did," Grande said. "The last thing I would ever want is for my fans to see something like that happen and think it won. Music is supposed to be the safest thing in the world. I think that’s why it’s still so heavy on my heart every single day.”
"I wish there was more that I could fix," she added. "You think with time it’ll become easier to talk about. Or you’ll make peace with it. But every day I wait for that peace to come and it’s still very painful.”
But that doesn't mean Grande has let the incident negatively affect her music. Her single, "No Tears Left to Cry," is joyful because "when I started to take care of myself more, then came balance, and freedom, and joy,” she told the magazine.
She went on, “We’ve messed with the idea of not being able to find the ground again because I feel like I’m finally landing back on my feet now.”