Monica Lewinsky's TV Special

NEW YORK, Feb. 28, 2002 -- -- Former White House intern Monica Lewinsky can finally say whatever she wants. Her four-year immunity deal with the independent counsel, which restricted what she could talk about, has now run out.

Lewinsky chose, as her first audience in four years, a group of college students. She fields questions from the group in her HBO special scheduled to air this weekend.

In the special, Monica in Black and White, she describes how lonely she felt during the investigation into her relationship with President Bill Clinton.

"Unlike Linda Tripp, who was kind of accepted by the right, and obviously, the left would support the president, there wasn't really a political party that wanted to be affiliated with me," she said to the students.

The former intern, who now designs handbags and takes classes at Columbia University, talked about the emotional toll the investigation took on her relationship with her parents.

"There is no privilege that exists between a parent and a child legally," said Lewinsky. "I mean, the bond I think that we have with our parents, and that our parents have with us is so sacred. And when you're in legal jeopardy, you rely on that even more."

Lewinsky opens the special by telling the students that they could ask anything they wanted. But in a press conference on the special last month, she was taken aback by one particular question. She appeared to fight back tears when a reporter asked about Clinton's moral standards."I'm flustered right now," she said. "I'm so sorry."

Lewinsky initiated the HBO project, which airs this weekend. She was paid for her participation, but she wouldn't say how much.The former intern said she made the film partly because she was worried other TV movies being made about her case would perpetuate inaccuracies and misconceptions.

"I'm really trying to do the best I can to normalize my life," she said in the press conference.