Jesse James Talks About Sandra Bullock Baby, Nazi Rumors

In an exclusive 'Nightline' interview James talks about Bullock and the baby.

ByABC News
May 25, 2010, 1:55 PM

May 25, 2010— -- Jesse James said he lost two of the things he loves most in the world: his wife, Sandra Bullock, and the baby they spent four years waiting for.

For James, seeing the recent People magazine cover of his estranged wife smiling up at their 3 1/2-month-old newborn was a difficult reminder that he was absent.

"It made me sad, but I realize why things have to be done in a certain way," he said in an elxlusive interview with ABC News Nightline, pointing out that adoption agencies could be critical given his villainous image in the tabloids.

James, 41, said he and Bullock, 45, found out around Christmas 2009 that the adoption went through and welcomed Louie, born in New Orleans, into their family on New Year's Day.

Watch the exclusive interview with Jesse James tonight on a special edition of "Nightline" at 11:35 p.m. ET/PT.

When asked why they adopted a black child, James said he "didn't care what color" the baby was.

"My only prerequisite for adopting a baby: I want the baby that needs us the most," he said.

In the months before James' infidelity made headlines, the 41-year-old owner of West Coast Choppers garage said watching Bullock be a mother to Louie strengthened their relationship.

"To see her in the role as mother is, like, one of the most amazing things I've ever seen. She is like a fish to water ... as soon as she put that baby into her hands it was automatic and amazing," James said. "I found a new trust for her, like I knew she wasn't going to leave, and our relationship blossomed."

Bullock had been a stepmom to James' three children -- daughter Chandler and son, Jesse Jr., whom he had with his first wife, Karla; and a daughter, Sunny, whom he had with his second wife, adult film star Janine Lindemulder.

James admits he shattered a seemingly-perfect relationship by having affairs outside his marriage.

I "took a pretty amazing life and amazing success and marriage ... and threw it away by my own hands," he said.

But in the midst of his affair, James told Mabrey, he wanted to get caught.

"When I was doing it, you know, one, I knew it was horrible, it made me feel horrible. And two, I knew I would get caught eventually, and I think I wanted to get caught," he said. "I know for a fact now what it was, you know. I mean, it was me trying to self-sabotage my life."

Once a magazine printed a story from one of his alleged mistresses, James said he told Bullock "basically everything" about his transgressions. But had Bullock known any of it was going on?

"I think she's had her suspicions in the past, but, you know, I lied, and lied my way out of it," he said. "I lied to everyone about everything, even to myself."