Holly Madison Reveals Details of Life in the Playboy Mansion

— -- For years, Holly Madison lived in the Playboy Mansion and enjoyed the status of Hugh Hefner's "number one girlfriend."

However, now she says her life at that time was not as exciting as fans may have thought.

“I realized I wasn’t treated well," Madison wrote in her upcoming memoir, "Down the Rabbit Hole," which was excerpted by Us Weekly. "I’m done being afraid of people. I don’t have any loyalty to Hef. I haven’t talked to him in four years, so there’s no reason to reach out now. Besides, it’s the truth."

Hefner, 89, who in 2012 married Crystal Harris, 29, called foul on the tell-all.

In a statement to People, the Playboy creator accused Madison of twisting the facts.

"Over the course of my life I've had more than my fair share of romantic relationships with wonderful women," he said in the statement. "Many moved on to live happy, healthy and productive lives and I'm pleased to say remain dear friends today. Sadly, there are a few who have chosen to rewrite history in an attempt to stay in the spotlight."

Below are five accusations Madison, 35, launched against her ex in the tell-all.

1. She contemplated suicide: According to an excerpt obtained by People, Madison was in a bathtub one night and thought about killing herself.

"Maybe it was the pot and the alcohol, but drowning myself seemed like the logical way to escape the ridiculous life I was leading," she wrote.

2. She felt pressure to get plastic surgery: Madison wrote that the environment at the Playboy Mansion led even the most beautiful models to feel insecure about their figures. Madison wrote in an excerpt obtained by Us Weekly that she was criticized when she changed her hairstyle or wore red lipstick, and in the People excerpt, copped to getting a nose job.

3. Hef tried to pay her to stay: In an except obtained by Us Weekly, Madison claimed that Hefner wrote in his will that if she was still living in the Mansion at the time of his death, she'd inherit $3 million.

“At the time, it was more money than I’d ever know what to do with... But I didn’t want it," she wrote. "I actually pitied him for stooping to that level. I couldn’t help but be offended. Did he really think he could buy me? I put the folder back on the bed just as I had found it and never breathed a word of it."

4. She was pitted against other women: Madison wrote that women in the house were often tricked into feuding with one another.

“I learned Hef was the manipulator," she wrote in an excerpt published Us Weekly. "He pitted us against one another."

5. She felt trapped: "Everyone thinks that the infamous metal gate was meant to keep people out," Madison wrote in an excerpt of the book, published by People. "But I grew to feel it was meant to lock me in."