Ellen DeGeneres on the tragic loss that changed her life

The comedian talks about the tragic loss she suffered at age 20.

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Luchina Fisher
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March 14, 2018, 3:46 PM ET
3 min read

Ellen DeGeneres has opened up about the tragic event that led to her big break in comedy.

"My girlfriend was killed in a car accident when I was like 20 years old," the 60-year-old comedian and talk host told Dax Shepard on his podcast "Armchair Expert with Dax Shepard" on Tuesday. "And I wasn’t doing comedy, I think I was probably waitressing someplace at the time. I was living with her when she was killed."

Unable to afford their apartment on her own, DeGeneres said she then moved into a "tiny little basement apartment."

"I was sleeping on a mattress on a floor and it was infested with fleas. And I used to write all the time, I wrote poetry and songs and stuff, and I thought, ‘Why is this beautiful 21-year-old girl just gone and fleas are here?’" the winner of 10 Emmy Awards told Shepard.

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Ellen DeGeneres says she came into her 'own power' in the last decade/> She turned her grief into material for her first stand-up routine that launched her career. "I just thought it would be amazing if we could just pick up the phone and call up God and ask questions and get an answer," DeGeneres recalled about her famous "Phone Call to God" joke. "It just unfolded, I just wrote the entire thing and when I finished, I read it and I thought, 'Oh my God, that’s hilarious. I’m going to do this on Johnny Carson," she continued. DeGeneres' prediction came true. She performed the bit on "The Tonight Show Starring Johnny Carson" in November 1986 and became the first female comedian invited to sit down on his couch afterward. <abcn:image index=[1