Jaycee Dugard and Mother Terry Probyn's Impact Statements

June 2, 2011— -- Jaycee Dugard was just 11 when she was abducted by Phillip and Nancy Garrido while waiting for the school bus in 1991. She spent 18 years, prosecutors have charged, living in squalor in tents and sheds in Garrido's backyard. At Thursday's hearing, Phillip Garrido was ordered to spend the rest of his life in prison.

Dugard was not present at the hearing. Her mother, Terry Probyn, read her daughter's statement on her behalf at the hearing. It was Dugard's first public statement since her rescue 22 months ago.

Read their full statements below.

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Jaycee Dugard's Impact Statement

"I chose not to be here today because I refuse to waste another second of my life in your presence I've chosen to have my mom read this for me.

Phillip Garrido, you are wrong. I could never say that to you before but I have the freedom now and I am saying you are a liar and all of your so called theories are wrong. Everything you have ever done to me has been wrong and someday I hope you can see that.

What you and Nancy did was reprehensible. You always justified everything to suit yourself but the reality is and always has been that to make someone else suffer for your inability to control yourself and for you, Nancy to facilitate his behavior and trick young girls for his pleasure is evil. There is no God in the universe that would condone your actions. You called yourself an "honest man" but these are just words to you. They were your tools of choice and you wielded them with brute force.

To you, Phillip, I say that I have always been a thing for your own amusement. I hated every second of everyday of 18 years because of you and the sexual perversion you forced on me.

To you, Nancy, I have nothing to say.

Both of you can save your apologies and empty words. For all the crimes you have both committed I hope you have as many sleepless nights as I did.

Yes as I think of all of those years I am angry because you stole my life and that of my family. Thankfully I am doing well now and no longer live in a nightmare. I have wonderful friends and family around me. Something you can never take from me again. You do not matter any more."

Jaycee Dugard

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Terry Probyn's Impact Statement

I am Terry Probyn and my oldest daughter is Jaycee Lee Dugard. On May 3rd, 1980, at 10:52 at night, Jaycee was born, my precious little baby daughter. Healthy and happy to be here. A true miracle and certainly, a gift from God. All 6 pounds, 4 ounces, she was mine to love, to nurture, to take care of. She was a part of me. My pride and joy. Blonde hair, blue eyes, my sweet baby girl. She would smile and coo and my whole world lit up. I lived and breathed for that baby. She is what life is worth living for.

We had some rough times, as any new mother would attest to. When her belly hurt and she couldn't sleep at night, we would rock in the rocking chair for hours on end, and I would sing to her… You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray, you'll never know dear how much I love you, please don't take my sunshine away.

No matter how bad that sounded, it was what soothed her and that is all that mattered. We grew together for eleven years, my warm embrace, my devoted attention, our unconditional love for each other. I protected her innocence and her purity. She was sweet and kindhearted. A gentle, quiet, compassionate soul. Together forever, bonded for life, a little mini me...

And then, on June, 10th, 1991, my world went dark. My sunshine was taken away. I asked God, "What did I do wrong? Why am I being punished? How could anyone with a heart or a conscience or a soul for that matter, take an innocent child away from its mother? How could someone take away the one person in this world that I loved so deeply? Where is she? Is she cold, is she hungry, is she hurt? I begged, I pleaded, I cried, I ranted and raved, I went crazy and thought I was going to go insane...I needed so desperately, to hold her and comfort her and tell her that i loved her. My baby was gone and all of my dreams turned to nightmares. Dreadful nightmarish thoughts of her bondage and of her suffering. She was a vulnerable child and I was unable to help her. A helplessness that turned into despair and misery and depression. I was lost without her but determined not to ever give up hope. I promised, Please God, wrap your arms around her and keep her alive, keep her spirit safe, and I will never give up looking for her. Please God, place a burden so heavy on whoever would do such an evil thing, that they would let her go and she could come back home to me.

I could hear her crying, not with my ears but with my heart. I could feel her pain, not with my body but again with my heart. Completely unbearable and debilitating. For eighteen excruciating years, I endured a huge gaping hole in my heart that some evil being had put their hand into and had ripped out. For eighteen agonizing years, I guarded what little I had left and lived in hell on this earth.

It was you Nancy Garrido and you Phillip Garrido that broke my heart. You took something that didn't belong to you. You hurt my baby.

I hate you both for the torment and anguish you put my daughter, myself, and my family through. I am nauseas at the thought of the sexual exploitation and the brutal abuse she endured at your uncaring hand. I am sickened by the reality that she had to suffer your cruel and heartless imprisonment for so long. You are the epitome of disgust and no amount of jail time or even death will cleanse your corrupt souls. You do not deserve to live or die or even exist. Your mother did not give you life to destroy others lives and I can guarantee that she would be ashamed to know she bore evil.

You are nothing…other than selfish, self serving, self gratifying monsters. What you have done to my daughters, my granddaughters, my family and myself is unforgiveable and the only satisfaction for me is that I know you will never lay eyes on my daughter again. And more importantly, you will never lay eyes on her two daughters again either.Her daughters know what you did to their mother. They realize your backyard was a prison and understand your filthy, despicable secret. They are aware that they have been deceived and I am here to tell you that there is no love lost.

I am expecting that all I have to say today will fall on deaf ears but this testimony is not for you. It is for me. It is for every mother and father out there that have experienced my pain. It is for every child and their siblings that have suffered at the hands of a predator. It is for those here today. My nightmare has finally ended, Thank God . But my battle against abduction has just begun and I plan to win just as I've done here today…

Terry Probyn